His Beyond

Friday, November 27, 2009

Ur My Heroin{6:04 PM}

Hey sayang

heres a short story about me...

I just dont know how i can start on that stupid & unhealthy stuff..
Maybe i tot that it could make me happy and could release out my stress..
But im wrong..., its only destroyin me and my life...

And i also dont know how i got the courage to be so frank
to you on this kind of matter eh...(haha)
But after tellin u all that i just feel so relieved sey..,
but at the same time i feel abit scared...(huhu... abit je eh)
U should know why eh bb...(got tell u b4)

And i was so surprise that u still wanna be friend with me
after i had told u about it...
Instead of leavin me..., u give me some advises and ask me to change...(wow)
And surprisingly again i listen to what u say...(haha.. how come eh..?)
Even though we are still friends on that moment...
After we get together.........,

"alhamdulillah"... See how much i had change bcoz of u bb...
From skinny to 72kg hotstuff...(hahahaha...)
And all this thanx to you b.., bcoz of you i dont think about
that stupid stuff..., you made me more happier than that stupid stuff..,
and with you now i could share my problems with
and no stress for me....(huhuhu)

And bb i promise i wont repeat that kind
of mistake again k... Dont wanna hurt or make u cry
with that stupid stuff k...

You do save me my HEROIN...:)
Love u bodoh..........

Thursday, November 26, 2009

You were young and silly.;{8:41 PM}

Hey sayang..

I'm writing while you're back in kampung.

I'm missing you so bad, i'm having a very bad headache now.

You know how i always get sick when you're not around, don't you??

You reminded me yesterday of the day you confessed it all to me.

The day we sat at the void deck, waiting for the rain to stop.

I never felt that hurt before, like, i don't know why, but yes, maybe i cared for you at that point of time.

Because you were my everyday boy, since 18th January.
But i so admire your courage, for telling me the truth.

Maybe that's why i fell harder for you, because only real men has got guts.

Why, why did you even start?

My mind wasn't at peace at all after knowing how truth really hurts.
No wonder you're so skinny and your face, it wasn't glowing at all.

I'm stuck between my heart and my brains.

Because my brains tell me maybe you're not worthy because i've seen friends getting abused by their boyfriends who does that thing you do, but my heart tells me maybe i could change you since i cared so much.

And yes, i've decide to pick heart over brains.

Because everyday boy, you were a part of me already.

Even if we were just friends.

You were my significant friend.

But changing you wasn't so hard.
Maybe because you knew i cared so much.

But when you told me of the urges, i just have to give a big fat NO.

Because i really wanted you to stop all that nonsense.

I wanted you to be healthy, i wanted you to be happy and yet, not depending on it to keep you happy.

Maybe i loved you, just a little.

Maybe that's why, even when i know the truth, i still stick with you.

Baby, no matter what, i want you to talk it out.

Never repeat your mistakes, please.

If i'm the one stressing you out, tell me.

I think we're matured enough. (eventhough i still behave like a baby around you. :P)

I love you so much, Muhammad Hanafi Anuar, my one and only Boboy.

Just look at the skinny, unhealthy you!

Monday, November 23, 2009

8yrs..,4yrs{12:53 AM}

Hey baby...,
itchy hands...(erghh)

8yrs is nothin compared to 4yrs...
I cant lied to you that im not happy during the 8yrs..., im happy but it just dont go well on me...

Even we have known each other for 4yrs and we had been together for just 8mths but somehow it really goes well on me and i dont deny that i've been more happy than ever b...
And b'coz of that 8mths.., you can make me smile and happy...
It doesnt matter how long the time i had spend from the past but the love that i get from you that matters me most...
Even though its only 8mths..., im fully yours now b...
Only you that can have me and no one else...(except for death la)
So i hope from now on you dont have to feel insecure again k bb....
You dont have to... Just throw away all your insecurity okay...??

Love u bodoh...

Saturday, November 21, 2009

For her..,I will{1:30 AM}

I have always tried to be the best for all..
I have tried to change..
But it seems hard for me..
I just dont know why..

Who likes to wait for someone
for about 4hrs..??
If i were definitely be pissed off..
But im the one who kept doing that..
And i really feel so sorry for her..
Even without her telling me that
she was mad about it.., with the look on her face
i know she was upset about it..

And this i promise i'll changed myself
to be better and always be on time
to meet her.. For her.., I will..

Im so sorry bb..
Love u bodoh...:)

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Loving You...<3{1:04 AM}

Im drowned in love...

If you are really the one for me
faithful & sincere..,
i wont ever change myself
and stop loving you like i use to...

Im just an ordinary guy
without a handsome look(coz im cute.. haha..:P)
or even a rich guy...
And i have nothin for you to be proud of
coz i am who i am...
Only with my sincerety and love
that i could showered you with...

I just want u to know that
i love you so much than anything else...
Wanna know why...??

Have to wait lah...(hehe)

Friday, November 13, 2009

i Miss You{2:08 AM}

LOVE
its a beautiful moments that
will always stay within us..
It gave us a wonderful feelings
that cant be express..

I had always thought that
we will never be far..
I had always dreamt that
you will always be by my side..

Before we could start
we had to leave..
I was so weak..
Only GOD knows how i feel..